supposed to be

doing research etc for school

what AM i doing?

thinking about how i left my camera in A n L's room and how i want to get it

but this would require extra clothes.

i cant be bothered.

last night i had of those almost dreams
as i was about to enter the land of slumber

i was pondering..to buy a bike, to not buy a bike..and so on and so forth.

then i envisioned myself biking up the hill into the uni

and slowing the road became so steep. vertical in fact

then it started twisting backward, like the most horrifying roller coaster
about then i opened my eyes

i wonder if gravity gave way to me in my almost dream

or if i rode it out like a wave

i dont think i shall ever know.

also my stomach for the last few days has been really sore. kinda like acid is burning up my intestines..

do i have a stomach ulcer?

all pulled up or all pulled down im not sure

lets put this thing to use.

i have

been reading random blogs. oddly inspired to write. though many blogs i find are complaining. or depressing. the writing is still good.
thus

i want to write

i put film in one of my lomos. i am excited to use it.

i bought undies in america. sizing is different here.

now i have undies that reach up past my belly button

i dont care. they are still comfy.

i will put mere things on here i think

what kills us now? cancer or a car smashing into you.

they are fighting it. as much as they can, smoking. good on them aye. but what about the thousands of drunk kids, many of under aged, that are...dieing?



why?

america collapsing like a house of cards? or something like that

so here in india with our brand new teacher of the week Vashil. who is kind of brilliant.
and made my brain ache a lot with a few if not all of his teachings, provoking brand new ideas. or expanding my views on certain things and the way this world is going.

one interesting thing which had always been a topic and the forefront: Religion.

One of the thing Vashil mentioned, was that some of the reason the western world developed more than other parts of the world- that had just as good resources, was because of values within the religion.

now of course i could be stating this wrong. and im sorry if i am.

is some of the reason things seem to be collapsing- because we are trying so hard NOT to offend any religion that we do away with them all. we forget what we stood for. and even why we stood for it. and let anything and everything take control.

its kinda dangerous dont you think?

what are our countries leaning on now for guidance and why?






another disclaimer : its hot. i cant think. internet costs. this may suck.

i know this isnt an essay

but genocide

it provokes me to think

what are we capable of?

they werent crazy

and is it about stronger action

shall we just blow em up to stop em

sometimes it looks like these men, these people that commit these

HORRIBLE things,

have a piece of them searching

to make something better

but that their 'better'

gets horribly horribly distorted

and some of them are crooks

power hungry

but we were all made in his image

sea lion

christians...or whatever title you want to give yourself

we have to realize, we live in the world.

i mean its something said over again probably

maybe

sometimes (me included) i think we choose to be naive to the things in this world. we would rather be starry eyed followers of Jesus then people who know whats going on and get involved.
there are things running/ruining our world. and unless we get invloved in decisions being made (goverment) bla bla bla

the thing is we need to not do things half ass. in a lot of things..God gave us gifts...there are things that probably come naturally and things that may not so much but may be a passion. we need to practise those things. refine those things. become good at those things. and use them to further the kingdom

no sitting of our bums wondering why the world is going to hell.

its going to hell when we stand silent. and i guess i do that a lot. so now im learning.

get over your insecurities and do it. try it. be it. live it. learn it.

the end

disclaimer: heaps of what i said may be crap or not make sense. search through the crap and find some truth would ya?

back to define you

perhaps the need for definition is because without we have chaos

without our definitions-whether they be right or wrong

we will continuously be asking questions, but never seeking
answers.

so we will live in idealism of maybes, could bes, and action will be lost

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