at times i'm not to sure how
one finds the other
amongst winds
and rains
and sunny days
i see
but i'm not too sure how
these
connections are connected

sometimes i feel like this

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY

AND HAVE A

HAPPY NEW YEAR

also sometimes i would love to only give a damn about myself.

and not try to write a book

about the cares of the world


ugly?

i know.

i think i could be dying from some sort of parasite.

and it worries me.

rhuematoid

tonight

those aches

have a ripple affect

and

my speech

is haltered.

tonight

those aches

seem to reach

beneath my ribs

to the place

that life

keeps giving.

The Human Experience

we watched The Human Experience last night as a whanau. it was good. it was stirring. and i found myself thinking. i did something not too different.

but watching

seems so different.